Waiting

Hello again internet world! It's been a few months, but not for lack of trying. I've spared this particular outlet from the mess of emotions and thoughts that these last months have been. My journal was not so lucky. The highlight events are pretty significant: an international move and an on-going career change.  The spiritual, emotional, and physical effects of these events bring about daily victories and defeats. And the lessons I'm being forced to learn....where do I begin?

Waiting. 
     "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" Psalm 27:14

I'm taking a break from teaching because I feel beat down and exhausted. My current circumstances are unique in that I have the resources and family support to take some time to retreat, to renew my mind, body, and soul. I get to wait and look to Jesus to mend my brokenness and show me the next steps to take. Thank you, Lord, for this precious gift of time to recover.

And here's the struggle to learn the lesson: waiting makes me think of idleness. I hear the voice in my head - "Suck it up, Merrell. Figure this whole job thing out fast so that you can stop being such a disappointment." The voice makes me second guess. The voice heckles me, hoping I will waste this gift of time and force something - anything - to happen. I'm not a fan of the voice. But I am a big fan of the verse above.

  • Wait for the Lord - I'm actually not waiting for the perfect job or hiding from the realities of this world. I'm waiting for the LORD! That is a name full of faith, hope, love, and promises!
  • be strong, and let your heart take courage - Because I'm waiting for God Himself, I can expect my heart to be attacked with discouragement and lies. The Truth defeats lies every time.
  • wait for the Lord - Important enough to say it twice in the same sentence.
So, I plan to wait for the foreseeable future.....to wait with purpose.....to wait for the Lord.

Comments

  1. marceil10/2/16, 4:14 PM

    Thank you for sharing a bit of your journey. Kudos to you for waiting on the Lord--probably one of the hardest disciplines to master. Prayers, Leslie!

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  2. The Reeds10/4/16, 11:18 PM

    I love you friend and hope to see and talk to you soon.

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