Struggle...
I just sent this in an e-mail to a friend and felt like I should post it here: I know that a big part of my problem at the moment is that my thoughts and questions have not been seasoned with God's Word. I've been negligent in having a consistent quiet time. I have not invested my time or energy into finding an area to minister in church. I have not even been attending church consistently. I know that the Lord is my portion. When I'm full of Him, then I am able to let go of my insecurities and pride and let His love flow out of me into the lives of others. I also know that His plan is the best plan and I'm safe when I walk with Him. But at the same time, I'm scared. I'm afraid of doing what He may ask of me, even though I know it's the best. How can I know the best choice and daily choose something else? How can I have tasted the sweetness of living in communion with Him and not have the energy to open His Word? I'm so afraid of losing those that I love....