When you wish upon a star...

…makes no difference who you are. Anything your heart desires, will come to you.

It's a lovely thought, but so not true. I think that the real truth goes something like this: When you give your life to Christ, your hopes and dreams morph into His plans for your life. And the great thing is that His plans are so much better than anything you could have come up with on your own. Not sure that it would fit into a catchy tune that half the world would recognize, but truth none the less.

I've been thinking back to my time at LeTourneau a lot lately. It may be because a dear friend that I met during college will be moving to Prague this summer. It may also be because my next birthday brings about a number that I'm actually struggling with a bit. Despite the reason why, my mind has been reliving a few ridiculous and fantastic adventures from that season of my life. Those memories have also reminded me of my college dreams, the biggest one being marriage and family.

But that particular dream in no way came to me. Over these 13 years since graduation, I've wrestled with the insecurities and doubts. I've been angry when a relationship didn't work out or when facing the fact that no one was even interested. I've questioned whether God really saw me or knew me. As I reflect a bit this morning, all the wrestling, anger, and questioning has resolved itself at the feet of Jesus.

By releasing my heart to Him, He has filled me with a love that I could not have imagined.

  • He has blessed me with a support system of family and friends that love me well. 
  • He has allowed me to invest and sometimes mother the next generation. 
  • He has shown me how to live in community with others and journey through life with purpose, grace, and love. 

And the longer I lay that college dream at His feet, my relationship with my Savior grows deeper and stronger. So thank you, Holy Spirit, for shaping my heart into the likeness of Christ so that God can abundantly fulfill all the desires You've placed there!

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  1. The Reeds6/7/15, 4:26 PM

    Leslie you are so beautiful inside and out. I love your heart and how God works in you.

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    1. Unknown6/9/15, 3:04 PM

      Thanks Georgia! And I love you - and so appreciate your continuing impact in my life!

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