Penny for your thoughts...

I haven't been much for "journaling" lately. There was a time where I actually preferred to write out what was going on in my head. I do understand that verbalizing the jumbled mess that is occurring in my brain provides an avenue for "working it out". But, alas.....I've been living with the jumbled mess for a while now. There have been a couple thoughts that stand out though.

#1. Sometimes, I'm actually afraid to feel. I know that sounds funny, but when life is stressful, and very little goes as well as you intended, it's easier to go numb then to sort through the feelings of disappointment and failure, or feelings of excitement in the day to day victories.

#2. Somehow, my practical, black-and-white brain needs to wrap my mind and heart around the fact that true, great, and abundant life can only be experienced when I'm living in tune with my Heavenly Father. Like the Israelites, I often forget His faithfulness and seek to further my own kingdom. Note to self: my kingdom is not all its cracked up to be.

#3. I'm grateful - for my health, for my family, for my friends, for my job, for my church, for my community group, for my students, for my cheerleaders, for my life. I'm blessed. I don't deserve these great things, but by God's grace, I have joy and peace. And that's what I need to reflect.

Thank you, online journal, for forcing me to organize a few brief thoughts.

Comments

  1. The Reeds10/22/10, 7:51 PM

    Do I still get a penny even if I have no thoughts??

    You sound like you're coping much better with your year than I am with mine. :-/

    C-scope M-schmope.

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  2. Unknown10/23/10, 10:29 AM

    You get as many pennies as you would like! You tell me where this C-scope character lives and I'll have a little conversation with him... :)

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