To work or not to work

So maybe this will turn into a once a week type event. At least I haven't thrown in the towel yet.

I go back to work on Tuesday. I actually have to go in Monday since I have a meeting to prepare for Monday evening. Call me crazy, but I'm looking forward to it. I've learned that if I lack urgency or deadlines in my life, I really don't do anything. For example, in the last few days I've become an NCIS addict, experienced the wonder that is Youtube, and struck one gold medal on Bejeweled Blitz. On the productivity scale, I'm failing....miserably. The wierd thing - I don't feel compelled to change it. I woke up the last 2 days with the intention of going to work, but when I didn't make it, I felt no guilt. I'm not quite sure what I've become. Hopefully, the structure and hours required for work will help me snap out of it!

I'm off to see the parents tomorrow. Should be fun - I may even play golf! And now, I'm off to bed.

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